Archive for December, 2003

28
Dec

b4 the new years resolution

   Posted by: AUDIOMIND   in Random

at birth we are “thrown” into a culture.

We do not choose the particular value system flooding our senses from the moment we are born. Most of us do not choose to be Christians or Muslims, Jews or Buddhists. We do not choose to be Americans or Iraqis, Hottentots or Chinese. We are simply tossed in a pre-existing mix and are expected to fit into the stew of beliefs and values of our particular families and nations.

To extricate oneself from the brew of our heritage is a most difficult enterprise. Most of us simply accept existing traditions and adopt them as our own. We hardly ever question the melee of our belief systems even though they are responsible for constants wars, upheavals, social injustice, religious intolerance, economic inequity and political manipulations.

Embracing our structure, we perpetuate its evils. More than that, most of us continue the claim that somehow our particular system is etched in stone and superior to any and all other systems. Many religious sects swear that only its adherents will pass St. Peter’s litmus test. Nations embracing quite dissimilar political systems nevertheless avow that they are God’s chosen people. Economic plans with totally divergent ideologies claim their choice is preferable over all other choices.

All of these postulates are made while a handful of rulers continue with their self-serving, bloody agendas. Jared Diamond in his magnificent book “The Third Chimpanzee” states that the only consistent signature of our species is genocide. He provides ample data substantiating his claim. Yet, the vast majority never question their supposed superiority over all other religions, political affiliations, and economic assumptions.

To be an authentic person requires the willingness to evaluate the structures into which one was thrown at birth. One has to become suspicious of the claims made by the rulers. One has to call into question the belief of the absolute superiority of the stew that happens to be our mix.

That basic requirement takes more guts than most people possess. The reason for this difficulty is that each system has built-in self-perpetuating clauses. In America the slogan is, “America, love it or leave it.” In the Christian tradition it is, “I warn everyone who hears the words of the prophecy of this book: if anyone add to them, God will add to that person the plagues described in this book; and if anyone takes away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God will take away that person’s share in the tree of life and in the holy city, which are described in this book.”
(Revelation 22:18,19)

The dominant alphas of America’s economic system have been able to attach a totally destructive 30 second slogan to all efforts seeking to improve the system. With sneering, scoffing, mocking curling of the lips the single word “Socialism” puts an end to the quest for justice and an inquiry into the chicanery of what so glibly is called capitalism.

To be accused of being unpatriotic, to take a chance with our assumed eternal life, to be an economic heretic requires more courage than most of us can muster. So, we become unwitting participants in the bloodbath of the innocents. But should one have the temerity to be suspicious, how does one acquire the guts for self-authenticating behavior?

The potion I offer is stout medicine. It centers on Nietzsche’s “Metamorphoses.” I am not claiming that this is the only way to authenticity. However, it happens to have been the roadmap of my journey. The transformation takes place in three steps. First one has to become a camel, then a lion, and, at last, a child. Let me explain.

Life is full of trials, tribulations, disappointments and disasters.

We seek to escape the full weight of the turbulence by imploring God to protect us from the arrows of outrageous fortunes. Or we blame others for our misfortunes, seek refuge in drugs and alcohol, engage in sexual escapades or become religious zealots. Each of these mechanisms is a flight from reality and a barrier to self-authenticity.

Nietzsche suggests that the first step toward maturity is to become a camel. Like a camel, we too are to kneel down and without protest accept the burdens, the trials, and tribulations of life. When you have problems, tell them to a deaf man! When you meet the phantom seeking to destroy you, extend your hands to it. When you are asked to cross murky, foul waters, do not disclaim cold frogs and hot toads.

Nothing in Nietzsche’s suggestions offers relief from your trials!

You will not find a healing balm in Gilead that makes the wounded whole. In your loneliness, you may not find companionship. In your pain, you may not find relief. In your agony, you may not find the peace that passes understanding.

However, as you act the camel and assume your burden, you will become strong. No rewards are offered except the boon of internal authenticity. No benefits will be conferred upon you except the benediction of becoming your own person.

Then, when the whining, the self-pitying, the escape from reality has ceased, you are ready for the second step of the journey. You become the lion. What is the strength of the lion? It is the courage to say “Nay” to the beast with a thousand golden scales. What is this glittering beast? It is the self-appointed authorities who decree what you shall do. It is the eternal imposition saying “You must,” claiming that all truth has already been
revealed.

The lion has the strength to say, “I will!” rather than
“I must.” All truth has not been revealed. As a matter of
fact, we know very little. For a certainty, we don’t know how to live in peace with our fellows, how to tame the beasts within our own being, how to fit into the natural order of the universe. The might of the lion is needed to break new trails in the wilderness of the human experience, to forge new ideas in the chaos of our existence.

With the strength of the lion, we are then ready for the final step of the process. There might be the temptation that with the power and the fierceness of the lion, one can then dominate and lord it over others. Not so, says Nietzsche. The self-authentic power confers strength to again become a child. “Innocence is the child, and forgetfulness, a new beginning, a game, a self-rolling wheel, a first movement, a holy Yea.” A holy “Yea” to life, to experiences, to enemies, to phantoms, to joys, to laughter and to tears.

Now, we can dance the dance of life. We can hear the music of the spheres. We are not afraid. In the midst of the maelstrom we have an inner serenity. In the midst of the foreboding waters, the cold frogs and hot toads we touched become the insights for a responsible life.

One caveat must be added.

Demand that each person become authentic thus placing no limit on this newly found independence.

That ethical admonition prevents the authentic person from becoming a tyrant.

Self-realization now is raised to a high level of ethical behavior. It is a state achieved by only a few persons. But if the blood bath is to stop, that must be our goal.

“It is never right to do wrong or to requite wrong with wrong,
or when we suffer evil to defend ourselves by doing evil in
return.” : Socrates 469 – 399 BC

ABOVE THE GRAIN

10
Dec

digressions

   Posted by: AUDIOMIND   in Random

Somehow, I got off on a tangent yesterday when I wrote about the concept of instant communication in our current digital age.

What I wanted to accurately focus on is the (reality of the) fact that we are always in instant transmission mode and expect everyone else to fall in line with this. In the outset, it seems plausible and positive but think about it.

Our cell phones, email, Instant Messengers, home phones, text messaging, beepers, etc, have made us easily and immediately accessible. Now this may be a preferred notion for some in certain circumstances, but is this a wish we all should accept?

Especially when this idea pertains to relationships.

Is it not the unknown, mystic, unusual and different phenomenon, the perplexing curiosity, and mystery that marvels, fascinates and guides us into our attraction and wonder?

Does that not become somewhat lost in the puzzled ease with which we are instantly available at any given moment of time/place?

Should we not strive for the impartialness that comes with being disengaged and unavailable? Yes, I know for some it might raise those uncertainty and suspicion levels, but once you dig deep in the bounds of your soul isn’t this “friction” and “conflict” inside yourself not what partially attracts you to that other individual, whether they be friend or/and lover?

In this age of the immediate onslaught of a million images a second directed at our eyes, can we afford to let an additional ill factored mind mechanism compel us to become even more readily bored and disenfranchised from the reality of the mirror of ourselves as we approach the yearning of the company of others?

Maybe I will turn off my cell phone, let the email box fill up for a week, uninstall trillian and wait to witness how many people actually come check up on me in my domain.

Nice experiment.

9
Dec

a piece of predetermination

   Posted by: AUDIOMIND   in Random

“Cowardice asks the question – is it safe? Expediency asks the question – is it politic? Vanity asks the question – is it popular? But conscience asks the question – is it right? And there comes a time when one must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular; but one must take it because it is right.”

(guess who I am)

Striking to me is the tone, now being systematically and irreversibly replaced, involving the simple matter of communiqué. How is it that technology has taken us all into a modern time of instant contact, instantaneous digital messaging, and advanced communicative revolutions that are almost beyond even human comprehension, yet seemingly people are far less able/willing/allowable(?) to personably communicate now than ever before in history. Or at least the history of which I am composed of.

Have the same tools and toys that have allowed such advancement also conveyed a resilient sense of apathy in our character as well? Or has the flight of our imagination been/being reconditioned to completely overlook anything except irrelevance and indulgence.

I miss good conversation, yet none are willing (able?) to accept the indirect invitation to do so.
It has become a burden on my depleting soul, as I rush to confine what sanity I have left.

Suggestions come to mind of taking all those around me to final task, once and for all, and either drop or embrace those whom I choose to confront.

Or maybe I should just send those with emails this link with nothing else in the email and suggest them to return the results, as I believe this test to be fairly accurate.
Take note that this site is an indirect correlation of a track produced by adam freeland.

http://www.wewantyoursoul.com/quote.php (Calculate the value of your soul)

mine = “Your soul is worth £19420. For your peace of mind, 50% of people have a purer soul than you.”

I am so much more evil than 50% of those in the world.

PFFFFFFFF!!!!

…………………….

Someone asked me today if I considered them beautiful, and being the over analytical, critical and methodical person I am I told them that I truly did not know an answer to that question that would be based on unadulterated and pure “truth”.

Such as it were, I told them that they would not be receiving a diagnosis from me today with which they might use as some precursor to identify their own interpretation of self worth.

I refuse to carry that burden.

The reasoning for my decision was based on the simple fact that I question everything I “know” or have been taught to “know”. Whether I want to be a part of our evolving and infinitely changing society is irrelevant, bc it is close to impossible to escape it even it that were a desire.

You see, I do have a clear and direct sense of what I believe to be what beauty represents in a person’s appearance, particularly a woman’s.

Yet, is that conclusion truly unbiased and based purely on my judgment or a judgment that has been perpetrated by those who would like for us all to behave with some predisposed nature inclined to follow what they intend us to? Whether or not “they” includes our direct family, friends, corporate business, television, advertising, etc, is of great importance when considering how one makes their own (hopefully informed) decisions. Even small and simple subconscious gestures, manners and motions have extreme effects on those around us and within ourselves.

It seems humans are highly irrational creatures with very little understanding of deductive reasoning for most either refuse to comprehend this simple concept or just out right ignore the obvious fact of the matter.

Take it from one.

We have all “grown” differently (mild or tremendously) with significantly independent circumstances and events which all have affected how we currently act accordingly in our attitude and behaviors. Nevertheless, to shrug off the fact that there are those entities/persons on our outside that have had a vital and profound effect on our decision making process would be ignorant to put it lightly.

So how can we ever know that our choices and evaluations are truly personal and not prejudiced and subjective?

We will by no means know for sure, but we can go forward and choose to accept this and educate and learn from ourselves by searching within to discover minor details on how we perform externally by how we rationalize within. For no answer is truly right or wrong, for how can you determine such a thing based on no absolute fact and determination?

You cannot and if you believe you can, you are fooling yourself.

Luckily, I have had the slight pleasure (at great personal sacrifice) of growing up almost autonomously and separate from what most are fairly familiar with.

Of course, most everything I do has some condition of past tense evaluation, but in most every assessment I move from one to the next anew, refreshed and with wisdom based upon mostly logical and sensible coherent reasoning.

Other times I just don’t give a fuck.

In any case this lady I spoke with was a full figured red head with freckles.

Now with my uncanny and weird (INTENSE) infatuation with freckles I could not base my verdict on logic, so I just told her that I believed her to be most stunning, as if she hadn’t heard that before.

I wonder what I would have thought if she did not have freckles?

Damn, I cannot remember her name now either.

Whoops……hee-hee.

5
Dec

immediately after

   Posted by: AUDIOMIND   in Random

and now i will play musical creation doctor………and take my own advice.

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In order to write or compose new songs, you need to mine your inner creative caches. In the dark crevices of your mind and heart lies new inspiration, but you may have to dig a little to uncover it. The trick is to peek inside your soul, and listen for the sound of your inner voice saying, “This might be fun to try” or “I could do something with that”.

When you catch an inspiration of that sort, listen closely and write down (or play) what you hear. Don’t discount an idea even if it initially seems bizarre or out-of-character from your usual style. Don’t worry about that now. If an idea sounds fun to explore, explore it. Try writing a whole song with an idea, just for the exercise.

Not all your inspirations will be “bizarre”, though. In fact, many will be mundane, and you may think “BORING!”. Again, don’t let that stop you from exploring the idea. Explore all the details and angles. Many of history’s great songs pay close attention to the small details of ordinary life.

It’s important to remember that when an idea embeds itself in your consciousness, it does so for a reason. That reason is so you can mine it for use in your creative endeavors. Don’t ignore the ideas you already have hoping for “cooler” ideas. Create what comes naturally for you. Ideas can’t be designated “good” or “bad”, so stop judging yours.
Sometimes, you may create with reckless abandon, the music rushing out of you almost faster than you can write it down. When this happens to you, this gold-rush of inspiration, enjoy the experience and extract as much creative ore as you can carry.

Other times, you may feel there are no ideas left to cart out of your barren creative cave. When this occurs, go out and do something fun and interesting, take a break from the work to re- stock. Always remember, you need to put life experiences in, so you can pull the images out when you create your music.

1
Dec

what is beauty?

   Posted by: AUDIOMIND   in Random

A human being is part of a whole, called by us the ‘Universe’, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest–a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.

(name that tune)

now this is beauty…..

can you figure out what it is?

i

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