Archive for November, 2004
my ancestors are from the lakota nation…..but this ideal may still hold true for them…..healing…..hopefully….
got some much needed rest [never enuff tho] and feel a little more balanced today…..and i bet even more so tomorrow…..and more so the next day after…..and then the next day……and so on and so forth….
i am sooooooooooooo fuck’n irresponsible/wreckless\careless/selfish\blank-headed/stubborn\unrealistic/apathetic\hypocritical/absent-minded/thoughtless\ignorant and a danger to the general welfare of those i hold most high upon a pedestal.
it’s one thing to formulate choices that have an immediate effect on your immediate environment….without it infecting those people around you……BUT IT IS A WHOLE N’OTHER MATTER WHEN YOUR CHOICES ARE PREPARED AND SERVED WITHOUT REGARD TO THE EFFX AND CONSEQUENCES OF THOSE ACTIONS TO THOSE AROUND YOU……..particularly those that are representative of pure goodness and happiness in your eyez….
i might as well hop back on the grade skool bus and be reedumicated, for methinks i might, still > to this very day, be walking in circles like a caveman drooling from his toothless mouth while scratching his lice infected dread-head……
even in all my supposed intelligence…..meticulous planning & awareness…..and supposed abundance of common sense [not]……..i still seem to manage to commit to fantasy far before accepting the vision of realism…….
perhaps i truly am the asshole everyone portrays me to be……..
i still have so much to learn…….primarily by exercising the notorious method of trial and error, or so it seems…..
dumbass = [d]
“you make everyday embody that amazed and anticipated feeling we all experienced in elementary school when it was pizza day”
bwahahahahaha…….uber cheez…….i invented a man-line……..woot-woot…….
[copyrighted 11-19-04]
s33ms i wasnt the only one unimpressed with Halo 2′z insipid and sudden ending…..
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>…………
in other news…………………
As I awoke around 3:30am, groggy and out-of-sync, I suddenly achieved somewhat of a basic reflection…….upon a single underlying surface of my comprehension of you…….
You are a gift to the world, the immediate and not….a preordained result of that colossal heart you possess, that you so effortlessly bestow upon the world…..upon me……
Your existence transforms me into a better man…..a blissful human……such a welcomed and cherished reward for such patience, understanding and acquiescence…..
You make me the happiest little man in the world….
No one ever said it would be easy.
Maybe that’s why it takes resolve – a conscious effort, a deep desire, and an honest commitment to love……. Human effort alone isn’t enough to bridge the passions that would divide us. The resolve this love carries with it \=/ celestial mysticism.
Unite us…..
Love compels me to look at you and see that your needs are being met as well as my own. When love binds us to one another, we feel that deep connection of soulful passion. Common goals and activities emerge and we find our individual part in it.
Ultimately it is our own words and actions – energized by an unselfish, inclusive devotion, that can transform the path of our daily journey.
….now go eat a banana b4 i bite THRU your knickers….
what is it about masturbation that does not attract me?
i just dont get it…..
*need erotic pics of you now*
fofl…..
reading that did sort of freak me out………no wonder the tears flow’d……