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Archive for February, 2005
While visiting the library last night to obtain the [illegitimate IRS] forms I need to fill out those lovely taxes, I happened to come across a library of recording sounds just for the taking……of all things nature and ambient like, etc……..
Reminder to self……check out all the libraries in Charlotte and ‘rent’ every sound cd they have available and make copies of it all!!!!
My own sound library will soon be so extensive that it is gonna take me years to go thru it all…..
Two gems in less than two days…….woot-woot!
A shower would be nice…..considering the truth that I be ‘itching’…….fofl…..
Sure wish I had taken pictures of that waterfall [and the surrounding area] we encountered …… that place was quite exquisite…. Seems though that we were paying more mind to one another instead……..
……eeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!??&$%&$#@#%&
……still curious about what we spotted [sensed?] in the woods after all the light around us dissipated, which frightened the beejesus out of her……..which reminds me >>>
Buy a Rambo Knife!
though i am glad i came to work today….for I would not have discovered this gem of a website:
http://www.findsounds.com
Where does invidious jealousy come from? < ?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />
Insecurity?
Faintly reminiscent but vivid……prior pessimistic moments resonating in my soul?
Glimpses of the cryptic and dark recesses of my mind?
A clandestine acknowledgment [no matter how unintentional and unwelcome, and nevertheless irrepressible] of how attraction works……a sentiment that cannot be subdued, even by the most strong disciplined soul????? The power we do possess rest in how well we restrict [and forbid] the response, the reaction to that sentiment.
Perhaps the way to revoke the sudden rush of emotions triggered by jealousy/envy is to bestow upon that person, where that emotional phenomenon stems from, an unconditional trust, even if the same adamant loyalty may have been betrayed in the past.
With true love must always follow absolute trust.
‘romance’ may not last, but TRUE LOVE does……..if you move beyond the imaginings you may have become accustomed to……
we don’t talk much about the travails of broken romances … it’s one of the best-kept secrets in all our minds…..
what most people do wrong is equate romance with love, not realizing it’s only a steppingstone. Romance [the head-over-heels, can't-think-about-anything-else kind] is self-oriented and doomed to fizzle if not built upon. It draws people together and jump-starts love, but that’s it. We cannot expect romance to carry the whole weight of love……DO NOT STOP there, even though our society instructs us to stop.
the media and society keep people at the selfish level by promoting the infamous fantasy of ‘No. 1’ and encouraging us to view love as a commodity, as something to be consumed, rather than expressed. That mentality cultivates emotional responses that are narrow and needy.
many a culture’s love relationships are simply a reflection of that society’s human relationships in general. There is a potential of instead of not only falling in love, but also ‘rising’ to love.
let us define love the way the ancient Greeks did, with not one word but three:
the first is eros – a self-focused, beginner-level love. (“Eros says I want, I need – therefore I love.)
….next, is philia – a type of friendship, or we-centered love, that looks out for the wants and needs of others.
….and finally, agape – a “no strings attached,” unconditional giving.
agape and philia are ‘higher loves’, which are serene and stable and not nearly as exciting as the beginning eros romance (which is ‘discussed’ less frequently). Being in love is a passive and personal emotional state, but loving is an active effort to ‘aid’ someone.
a ‘higher love’ is just more generous, whereas the other person is important in his/her own right rather than just an instrument for your wants and needs.
‘higher love’ is certainly attainable, but it takes practice and effort. Loving differently means having a more generous, kinder, less-acquisitive approach toward everybody and not just ‘your’ person. That’s what will help people rise above the current level of relationships and develop their spiritual and emotional being.
the conceptual premise is very simple, just not always easy.
For those out there who read this journal and who have experienced the brilliant marvels of that lady named MOLLY, first hand [‘digitally’ or in person], I want you to lay the foundations [list the reasons] why you believe she is such a wonderful person.
I want you to be explicit and whole-heartedly honest in the your response.
Feel free to post this entry [modified of course] in your own journal, in indication of those who also have such an encouraging, wonderfully intense and positive effect on your lives.
