a piece of predetermination

“Cowardice asks the question – is it safe? Expediency asks the question – is it politic? Vanity asks the question – is it popular? But conscience asks the question – is it right? And there comes a time when one must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular; but one must take it because it is right.”

(guess who I am)

Striking to me is the tone, now being systematically and irreversibly replaced, involving the simple matter of communiqué. How is it that technology has taken us all into a modern time of instant contact, instantaneous digital messaging, and advanced communicative revolutions that are almost beyond even human comprehension, yet seemingly people are far less able/willing/allowable(?) to personably communicate now than ever before in history. Or at least the history of which I am composed of.

Have the same tools and toys that have allowed such advancement also conveyed a resilient sense of apathy in our character as well? Or has the flight of our imagination been/being reconditioned to completely overlook anything except irrelevance and indulgence.

I miss good conversation, yet none are willing (able?) to accept the indirect invitation to do so.
It has become a burden on my depleting soul, as I rush to confine what sanity I have left.

Suggestions come to mind of taking all those around me to final task, once and for all, and either drop or embrace those whom I choose to confront.

Or maybe I should just send those with emails this link with nothing else in the email and suggest them to return the results, as I believe this test to be fairly accurate.
Take note that this site is an indirect correlation of a track produced by adam freeland.

http://www.wewantyoursoul.com/quote.php (Calculate the value of your soul)

mine = “Your soul is worth £19420. For your peace of mind, 50% of people have a purer soul than you.”

I am so much more evil than 50% of those in the world.

PFFFFFFFF!!!!

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Someone asked me today if I considered them beautiful, and being the over analytical, critical and methodical person I am I told them that I truly did not know an answer to that question that would be based on unadulterated and pure “truth”.

Such as it were, I told them that they would not be receiving a diagnosis from me today with which they might use as some precursor to identify their own interpretation of self worth.

I refuse to carry that burden.

The reasoning for my decision was based on the simple fact that I question everything I “know” or have been taught to “know”. Whether I want to be a part of our evolving and infinitely changing society is irrelevant, bc it is close to impossible to escape it even it that were a desire.

You see, I do have a clear and direct sense of what I believe to be what beauty represents in a person’s appearance, particularly a woman’s.

Yet, is that conclusion truly unbiased and based purely on my judgment or a judgment that has been perpetrated by those who would like for us all to behave with some predisposed nature inclined to follow what they intend us to? Whether or not “they” includes our direct family, friends, corporate business, television, advertising, etc, is of great importance when considering how one makes their own (hopefully informed) decisions. Even small and simple subconscious gestures, manners and motions have extreme effects on those around us and within ourselves.

It seems humans are highly irrational creatures with very little understanding of deductive reasoning for most either refuse to comprehend this simple concept or just out right ignore the obvious fact of the matter.

Take it from one.

We have all “grown” differently (mild or tremendously) with significantly independent circumstances and events which all have affected how we currently act accordingly in our attitude and behaviors. Nevertheless, to shrug off the fact that there are those entities/persons on our outside that have had a vital and profound effect on our decision making process would be ignorant to put it lightly.

So how can we ever know that our choices and evaluations are truly personal and not prejudiced and subjective?

We will by no means know for sure, but we can go forward and choose to accept this and educate and learn from ourselves by searching within to discover minor details on how we perform externally by how we rationalize within. For no answer is truly right or wrong, for how can you determine such a thing based on no absolute fact and determination?

You cannot and if you believe you can, you are fooling yourself.

Luckily, I have had the slight pleasure (at great personal sacrifice) of growing up almost autonomously and separate from what most are fairly familiar with.

Of course, most everything I do has some condition of past tense evaluation, but in most every assessment I move from one to the next anew, refreshed and with wisdom based upon mostly logical and sensible coherent reasoning.

Other times I just don’t give a fuck.

In any case this lady I spoke with was a full figured red head with freckles.

Now with my uncanny and weird (INTENSE) infatuation with freckles I could not base my verdict on logic, so I just told her that I believed her to be most stunning, as if she hadn’t heard that before.

I wonder what I would have thought if she did not have freckles?

Damn, I cannot remember her name now either.

Whoops……hee-hee.